Will I be Able To Say It Again? <#3

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Hey hey...

It's been a while.

I happened to be so free today that I've decided to write a post today.

Hmmm.

I'm seriously confused.

It seems that whatever that I'm doing now is all wrong. True enough, some of them are stupid mistakes, but most of the time, I feel like as if I'm victimized.

Is it because I have too much negativities in me that sets my mind to be in a certain way? Or is it because I don't want to stand up for my rights? Seriously, I don't know where I stand.

All of my confidence that I used to have are drained and now, I think I'm left with almost nothing. How am I going to move on with life w/o confidence? Maybe I can, or maybe I can't.

I still do have people around me that still cares for me, want me to change for the better. Though they might be the one that annoy me most, I believe, they are the ones that will be with me as time passed.

Relationship wise. I'm gonna let nature takes it's course. Not that I don't have any preferences in girls, it's just that I guess, moving on from a failed relationship is never easy. One thing for sure I've learnt:

"Love; accepting for all of what they are."

Day has passed, Thoughts written down !

10:33:00 PM

Thursday, March 18, 2010

When the sacrifices you've made was huge,
To others, it might be just a small matter.

Day has passed, Thoughts written down !

10:02:00 PM

Don't you think that sometimes,

the decision you've made are choices of your heart.

It's never the long talks by your friends nor family

that made a conclusion for your fairytale ending.

But it's actually the matter of selfishness of oneself. =)

Never once regret to the decision that you've made,

Cause when it's back to reality,

You'll realized that it's all worth the fight.

Day has passed, Thoughts written down !

6:01:00 AM

Monday, March 15, 2010

Huhuhu!

Don't ask me where I went;

I just feel that maybe,

Just maybe

I'm lost

Day has passed, Thoughts written down !

2:56:00 PM

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Wanted to change for the better. Really wanted to! But just don't know where to start.

Too much things that I wanted to achieve. Have to take it step by step.

Day has passed, Thoughts written down !

5:57:00 AM

Saturday, August 15, 2009

It's been months and yet again, I moved on with my life. Perhaps not in a way that everyone would expect but more of like trying things that never been done before.

A lot and i really mean a lot happened. Quarrels, fights, arguments and just anything that you can thing of negatively, happened!

To me, friendship is one thing that I really treasure. Family is obviously something that you can never throw out of your life but friends? You have to be careful when it comes to friends. You have to find those who can really understand you, appreciate of what you are and willing to help you by any means.

I never want to see my closest friends to just fall out of a situation. Be it being backstabbed by other people or being played around. Never. And I will never will. I will help them in any means that I can. They might not be treating me the same way that I'm treating them but one day, perhaps just one day, they will understand the reasons why I'm doing all these.

Friends are not just friends by name. They are the ones who you can depend on when you in need. They are the ones that can give you a listening ears other than your family. Family is never a choice in my list as they're apart of me but friends, they're always the first on my priority list.

I think I've already understood the meaning of friends really well that I think I've to tell myself to just beware of the world out there. I'm easy to mingle with me but that doesn't mean if I can mingle well with them, I'll be one of them. Only me and I really mean only me that can determine who can be my closest ones and no one got the rights to judge them. NO ONE!

Day has passed, Thoughts written down !

5:18:00 PM

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Hey peeps, finally i'm updating again. I'm just out of mood to update actually. Reason being ... just can't be bothered I suppose. Lol! But no worries, I'm now trying to pretend that my bloggie here is like my log book that I need to update daily. Haha!

I'm not trying to be arrogant here people but I just signed a contract with one of the modelling agency. Hmm, I did 2 photoshoots with 'em. The first one was a failure. For those who know what happened to my skin, it was the main reason why the first photoshoot session was a big failure. But, as modelling is one of my burning passion, I strive on and try to use facial products to clear up my skin and with God's Willing, it improved alot.

All I can think of now is that I can step into the modelling world and expriences it. Despite of my height that's barely 5 feet 2 inches, I will persevere and strive through. If the world's shortest supermodel (atleast my modelling knowledge), Devon Aoki, which is only 5feet 5 inches can do it, why can't I right? Well, ya true, she's a female model and for a male model, the acceptable height will be about 5feet 8inches.

So, well, that's facts of life and I'm like going against nature but that's life. It's either you take the risk or you just sit in the corner and watch people succeed.

Day has passed, Thoughts written down !

11:47:00 PM